I don't know why but for the last couple of days the worst possible thoughts have been consuming and literally taken over my mind. As the days get closer to what is suppose to be the life changing best day of my life I just can't seem to control these horrible thoughts. The worst one is death. I just keep thinking "What would happen if this surgery leads to the end of my life... I have a husband that I would be leaving behind... I haven't had children yet... I'm only 22 years old" blah blah blah. What is happening to me? Why an't I control these thoughts? And they are just getting worse as the big day gets closer. I'm really considering calling this surgery off because as much as I need and want to loose weight, I don't want to loose my life in the process. I have allowed this thing to completely drown out every pleasant thought that I had in my head. I have given to many pep-talks to people on this site but as of right now I can't seem to take my own advice. Has this happened to anyone else? Is this normal? Is this a sign that I'm not yet ready for this surgery? Please help me out guys. I seriously feel like I am going crazy over this.
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